Almost everything I wish I'd said the last time I saw you.

Keeping secrets safe, every move we make. Seems like no one's letting go. And it's such a shame cause if you feel the same how am I supposed to know?


Do you ever wish you would have said exactly how you felt, when you felt it, to a person you couldn't see yourself without? For me, always. I feel like my life is a constant battle between my head and heart, one saying: "if you tell him, you're going to sound: pathetic, needy, and stupid".. the other saying: "tell him, or he'll never know." How do we differentiate between such mixed signals? When do we decide to take matters into our own hands and start making our own rules? Everyone I've ever sought this kind of advice from has always told me that if you care about someone, tell them - otherwise, how are they supposed to know? Well.. considering some of my previous posts, you know that has a tendency to bite me in the ass from time to time. This time, I feel it is necessary for me to put this out there for the guys - please, if you like a guy or a girl, hell an alien, tell them. Quit playing the guessing game, just be happy. Looking back on my life throughout high school, and now college, if I had told everyone I've ever cared about exactly how I felt, it's hard to tell what my life would be like right now.

Right now I suppose the best song to describe my mood would be Pretending by Glee. Listen to it here.


I'm really loving anything by Glee right now, if you haven't watched it/listened to them - DO IT NOW.


- Chandler

Like you like an arsonist.

If you wanted to break my heart, there was a thousand ways to do it, but you didn't have to be with her to hurt me.

When do you decide when enough is enough? How do we decide when there literally isn't anymore to give? Is it when you've moped around for three weeks, staring at you phone waiting for a text that you know you'll never see? Is it when you take those few extra shots because hey, you're already drunk and he doesn't care, so what could a few more hurt? Or is it when you wake up and realize that he's with someone else? Well, seeing as I've done quite a bit of thinking over the past few weeks, I've come to the conclusion that things have got to happen for a reason - although I'm not really sure what that reason is. However, one thing I can't seem to grasp an understanding on is when I'm finally starting to reason with things and cool down a little, they come out of nowhere. It's like guys have a pager that goes off when everything is going good with my life. I really don't understand.

Now on to a more musical note..

Lots of new material out lately, which, if you hadn't noticed really makes me happy. First, and I'm kicking myself in the ass for even making a post about this, Lady Gaga's new album Born This Way dropped at midnight tonight. I must say, I am not impressed. It's definitely not what I was expecting, seeing as Born This Way and Judas were somewhat catchy. It all sounds slow and drug out.. nothing you can dance to, sadly. Sorry little monsters. However, I do like You and I. If I had to recommend anything off of the album, it would be that one.

All Time Low's new album Dirty Work, set to be released June 7th, is able to be pre-ordered on iTunes now. Being one of my favorite bands, I took the liberty of listening to the track list.. and I must say, Time Bomb is my absolute favorite. If you're already not a fan, check out their music. Here's just a few of my favorites of theirs..

1. Toxic Valentine - listen to it here

2. Time Bomb - listen to it here

3. Break Your Little Heart -listen to it here

Another one to definitely check out is Love Suicide by Tinie Tempah & Ester Dean, listen to it here.

I'll post a music poll here soon..

- Chandler

My attendance is bad, but my intentions are good.

Do whatever makes you happy but do it now. Live life for the moment because everything else is uncertain, take advantage of what’s right in front of you.


WAIT. BEFORE YOU READ ANY FURTHER, GO LISTEN TO THIS KID - his name is Cris Cab, and if you're a guy, you should really listen to this song. Take notes. It's called Good Girls, listen to it here.


I really hate it when someone asks me what I want to do with my life, this is a question I never know how to answer. I usually respond with what they want to hear, "oh you know, just trying to get into the radiology program" .. to be honest, I really have no desire to go into that program - maybe why that's why school doesn't interest me. How are we supposed to know what we want to do with our lives at twenty years old? I feel like I'm still growing up, wasn't I just sixteen last week? Sure feels like it. If I had it my way, I would design clothes, be a musician.. something no parent or adult really wants to hear. How impractical - the horror. I would love to travel, spend a year in the peace corps, ya know.. do nothing really but making a difference. I guess I've had a lot of time to think about my life and what I want this week - I haven't made much progress, but it's a start. I guess I'll figure it out sometime, but right now it's summer and I just want to have a good time.


Most listened to today: Better With The Lights Off - New Boyz.


- Chandler

The leaving song.

Sometimes people play hard to get to make sure that the other person's feelings are real.


I've recently had an epiphany about love, guys, & dating. It is clearly not worth my time. I either get the stage five clinger or the one who makes me chase them for three months only to find out that they're seeing another girl. I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't really know what I want. I don't want someone to make it too easy for me, I like a little bit of chase, but don't make me run forever - especially if you have no intentions on putting forth any effort either. And now, once again, I am at a loss for words.. so if you're having a rough day, going through a rough time, or just angry at the world - mostly guys.. listen to my playlist.

1. How you love me now - Hey Monday
2. Homecoming - Hey Monday
3. Tonight Tonight - Hot Chelle Rae
4. What The Hell - Avril Lavigne
5. Stupid Boy - Keith Urban
6. Break Your Little Heart - All Time Low
7. Sick Little Games - All Time Low
8. You Lie - The Band Perry
9. Move Along - The All American Rejects
10. Gives You Hell - The All American Rejects
11. Ego - Beyonce
12. Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls
13. Undo It - Carrie Underwood
14. Cowboy Casanova - Carrie Underwood
15. Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood
16. Deuces - Chris Brown
17. Tell Me I'm A Wreck - Every Avenue
18. Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy
19. I Guess You Can Say Things Are Getting Pretty Serious - Forever The Sickest Kids
20. I Don't Want To Be - Gavin Degraw
21. I Pray For You - Jason & The Long Road To Love
22. Ridin Solo - Jason Derulo
23. I Look So Good (Without You) - Jesse James
24. Too Little Too Late - JoJo
25. Leave (Get Out) - JoJo
26. Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake
27. What Goes Around.. Comes Around - Justin Timberlake
28. No Good - Kate Voegele
29. Devil In Me - Kate Voegele
30. Who You Are Without Me - Kate Voegele
31. Angel - Kate Voegele
32. Playing With My Heart - Kate Voegele
33. 99 Times - Kate Voegele
34. Hot N' Cold - Katy Perry
35. Use Your Love - Katy Perry
36. Blah Blah Blah - Ke$ha
37. Grow A Pear - Ke$ha
38. Sleazy - Ke$ha
39. Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson
40. Goodbye - Kristinia Debarge
41. Poker Face - Lady Gaga
42. Eh Eh - Lady Gaga
43. Alejandro - Lady Gaga
44. Boys Boys Boys - Lady Gaga
45. Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus
46. Who Owns My Heart - Miley Cyrus
47. Tie Me Down - New Boyz
48. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
49. Better With The Lights Off - New Boyz
50. Silly Boy - Rhianna
51. Emergency Room - Rhianna
52. Ego - The Saturdays
53. Missing You - The Saturdays
54. Eenie Meenie - Justin Bieber & Sean Kingston
55. Falling Down - Selena Gomez
56. Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz
57. Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift
58. Should've Said No - Taylor Swift
59. Summer Girl - Leighton Meester
60. Everything I'm Not - The Veronica's
61. Don't Trust Me - 3OH!3


- Chandler

You've dug your own grave, now lie in it.

You lie, but I'm a pretty good liar. You chose a game I can play better. And you're bright, oh but baby I'm clever. So you might as well let me tell you.. It's not too late to do yourself a favor and walk away, though I know that's never been your nature. And by the way, you've put yourself in danger cause you're playing with my heart.

Lies. How do we distinguish what is the truth and what isn't anymore. Lies are easy to tell, but not so easy to spot. My favorites of all time would have to be the ones guys tell to get in your heart and/or your bed. I don't understand, and maybe I never will.. but I'm starting to feel like a lie magnet. Why are people so afraid of being upfront and honest? Has society somehow lost their way when it comes to truth and chivalry? Yeah. Life isn't like an 80's movie, unfortunately. As much as I would love to think that my life will somehow wind up like the ending of Easy A and ride off into the sunset on a lawn mower, it won't. That and I probably would never date a guy who drove a lawn mower.. but that's besides the point. Stop running your mouth and start telling the truth - life would be far less complicated.

On a musical note.. a LOT of new albums and singles dropped today. Including my personal favorite, Turtleneck & Chain by The Lonely Island. Their 20 track album includes singles like I Just Had Sex featuring Akon, Jack Sparrow featuring Michael Bolton, & Motherlover featuring Justin Timberlake. If you're looking for good beats with a sense of humor, I definitely recommend them.

Lady Gaga also released her new single The Edge of Glory. Now, I know everyone and their mother-brother-sister-uncle-cousin-and aliens watched her HBO Monster Ball Special .. but I've got to say, I appreciate her older stuff more. All of her new tracks just don't tie together very well, or as well as they could. DON'T COME AT ME LITTLE MONSTERS, keep your paws to your damn self.

Also, I'm thinking of doing another poll - I just haven't decided what I want to do. I'll think it over and have it posted by next week.

- Chandler

Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends

Sometimes, life will kick you around, but sooner or later, you realize you're not just a survivor. You're a warrior, and you're stronger than anything life throws your way.


I know I haven't posted in awhile - I've had a lot going on, and to be honest, I really have had no desire to post anything. I've now come to the conclusion I will never let my guard down, never. Just when I think it's safe to take the walls down, someone surprises me with a grenade. I can honestly say I am 110% over it. How much torture can one person take? If you want her, fine - be with her. But commit to her, not the rest of Fairmont States population, but just know I will not be one of your sideshows. I don't need you. I never did, and never will. I'm not even upset anymore, just sorry for all the other girls heart strings you've pulled and quite possibly shattered.


I don't have anymore to say. If you want my true feelings on this subject, listen to my most listened to.. they may be able to explain it better than I ever hope to.


1. If This Was A Movie - Taylor Swift
2. Should've Said No - Taylor Swift
3. No Good - Kate Voegele
4. Playing With My Heart - Kate Voegele
5. Ego - The Saturdays
6. Missing You - The Saturdays


- Chandler