Given these recent three am blog posts, I'm starting to think I have insomnia. Or maybe this is just the time when I can think with a clear head.. either way, a thought popped into my head while I was in the shower earlier - my birthday. Now I know birthdays are supposed to be fun and exciting, but last year is when it really started to sink in that I am no longer a teenager, and I definitely can't get away with half of what I used to. Ugh. When did growing up become more of a responsibility instead of being fun and getting to do "grown up" things? It's like when your 9 and all you want to do is be 10 because you're no longer a single digit.. or when you turn 13 and you think you're really cool because you're a teenager.. and when you finally turn 16 and get your license (in my case on the second try) and you think you can drive anywhere you want. God I miss those days. I feel like ever since I turned 18 the world has been out to get me. Wasn't that feeling supposed to end with the teenage angst phase? Guess not. But I shouldn't complain, it hasn't been all bad.. in fact, lots of wonderful, miraculous things have happened in my lifetime. But as I was standing under the hot water of my shower, I realized that I have learned a lot in my soon-to-be 21 years of life..
- Don't trade your pink popsicle for the icky orange one.
- Never underestimate your mothers know & will power - she wins every single damn time.
- Pinky promises should never be broken, especially if you bit on it.
- Color outside the lines, then tell your art teacher that even Picasso had to start somewhere.
- Mac & cheese tastes just as good at 2 am as it does at 6 pm.
- Pulling an "all nighter" in high school is never the same as your first real all nighter working on a college psych paper.
- It's okay to still check your closet & under your bed for monsters, even at 20.
- Never listen to country music when you're already depressed.
- Don't facebook or twitter stalk him - it just makes things worse.
- Your best friends really can help you through anything.
- Chances are the friends you had in high school aren't in your life now.
- Sing in the shower or along with your radio in the car.
- When a guy says he's a "good guy" don't trust it til it's proven.
- Don't waste your money on lingerie, chances are he'll never see it or it'll come off 5 minutes later anyway.
- Secrets don't make friends.
- No matter how many times your request a song at vice, the dj will not play it. Even with the 4 smiley faces you drew on the request card.
- Never, ever listen to someone when they tell you to "chug that beer"
- Keg stands are never a good idea either.
- If a bar rat asks for your number, make one up.
- Don't wear new heels downtown. They'll end up ruined & your feet will be in hell for at least 2 days.
- If he's not texting/calling you - he legitimately doesn't care, neither should you.
- You don't need to take a gazillion pictures to create memories.
- Your bucket list is never ending, stop trying to write it all down and do it.
- When someone says the cops are coming to break up the party you're at, you better get a head start.
- Don't buy that expensive coat you want now, but know you will only wear once. Your wallet will regret it.
- Always over think getting a tattoo. It won't be cute when you're 80 years old.
- Visit your parents/grandparents every chance you get.
- It's okay cry in front of people, chances are they'll do it too eventually.
- If he can't love you in sweatpants and his ratty old t-shirt, he's probably not worth it.
- Change your mind often.
- Driving your car to clear your head is a good thing.
- High school classes/tests are NOT the same as the ones in college. Don't let them fool you.
- Never take that "one more shot" before you leave for the bar.
So basically I could go on and on for another two hours, but seeing as I have to be a responsible "adult" and get up for work in the morning, I had to shorten it a little. Life comes at you fast, and I really didn't fully understand that until now. People always tell me, "oh you're young, your life is just beginning" - okay, yeah that may be true but I feel like it's just going to go all down hill from here. Who knows, maybe 21 will surprise me.
