You can't take back what we never had..

Now usually I have some witty one tree hill quote to start out my posts.. but I don't have much for you tonight. I have about 36 drafts I attempted to post on here over the summer.. most were too confusing to decipher, considering I spent half my summer drunk.. others were just, well, no one needs to read those. I feel like here lately I'm learning that things, guys, drama, shit just isn't as important as it used to be. Maybe it was morgantown, maybe I just lost sight of who I wanted to be.. but not living there, and getting back to fairmont has made me realize and appreciate things more. Don't get me wrong, I'm moving back next semester but it's nice for the time being. I know I'll wake up later and regret this post, like some of my previous ones, but nights I can't fall asleep I stay awake thinking about everything.. like why is everyone either getting engaged or having babies? I mean that's fine, but what happened to the days when we wanted to be more, princesses and super heroes? It's hard to be a grown up when you're still growing up.. I couldn't wait to be grown up, and now the only thing I want to do is watch cartoons on saturdays and believe that everything will be okay. I'm sure Innocent by Taylor Swift is the best song to describe this. When you lay awake and really start thinking about things, shit starts messing with your head.. I feel like some memories always find a way of creeping up on me, that's the hardest part. It always gets worse when I drink.. it's like all your emotions are magnified ten times and that has a way of biting me in the ass. This is the point where I just need to stop trying.. I'm tired of putting my cards out there and people not playing fair, it's like high school all over again.


I'm done rambling, goodnight. or morning.


Most listened to on my playlist this week:
Address in the stars - Caitlin & Will
Marvins Room - Drake
You don't know her like i do - Brantley Gilbert
Too damn young - Luke Bryan