When you turn the lights out, it's all the same darkness.

Promise me one thing, when you pick the one you're gonna really be with promise me they are someone who respects you and treats you well.. someone who makes your heart race and someone you love. Because of who they are, not what they do. Use your head and follow your heart.

They say you don't choose who you fall in love with, that it just happens without us really even knowing it.. and up until today I guess I didn't really believe that. I spend so much time pushing people away because it's easier than letting them in.. letting them get close to me. I have my reasons.. I guess I'm a little jaded, but isn't everyone? We spend our lives just trying to get by day to day and then all of a sudden someone comes into your life, unannounced and changes everything. Suddenly you're doing things you never thought you would, saying things that don't sound natural & constantly checking your phone for their text.. what the fuck. Guess that's love right? I guess you could say I'm not loves biggest advocate. I find myself struggling to find a balance that feels comfortable.. some sort of stable ground.. I'm not there, but I'm working on it. I think my biggest reason for not letting people get close to me is that I always end up getting hurt, someone's always letting me down.. so in turn I freeze them out. It's easier than going through the motions. So let me just say this - no matter who it is, where you are, or when it happens, when you turn out the lights it's all the same darkness. Make sure you're with someone who's gonna be there when you wake up..