I do a lot of stupid things when I drink. I make promises I know I won't keep, tell myself this is my last drink, pour my feelings out in a stupid text message, and compromise my morals. Having said all that, I should never be allowed near vodka or a cell phone. I think the thought of drinking your feelings away sounds like a good idea at the time, but when you wake up the next morning with the hangover from hell, things don't look so pretty in the light. All the unaware and unlogical choices from the night before start to blur together and that can complicate things. Drinking only numbs things for a little while, and sure - he may be really cute and sweet now but when you wake up the next morning with fifteen text messages telling you what you did last night, well.. it kinda makes you reconsider things a bit. I wish I didn't use alcohol as a way to get through things, and in turn I wish it didn't cause me to make bad decisions with boys I've known for three hours. I guess these turn of events have shed a bit of light on my situation and made me really realize what I want out of life. I don't want a guy who just wants to add another number to his phone.. I want someone who understands the feeling I get when I pick up my guitar and finish a song. Someone who sees that there are two sides to me - both great.. someone who knows that one song can instantly change my mood.. I guess I just want someone who can see that the little things are the big things to me.
Most listened to today is anything by Kate Voegele. She's great. I recommend anything of hers.
- Chandler
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